Have you ever felt like you were internally fighting with yourself?
It feels like you’re pulling yourself in multiple different directions. Go left. Wait, no, right. Ehh but actually left is better. What about if I keep going straight? Well if I went straight then I can’t go around. So that’s why right is better. Or I could just turn around. Just go with left that was your first thought! But I second guessed myself which means I should not go left. Here I am still standing in the same spot 10 minutes later and now I have fatigued my brain so much that I don’t have any energy remaining to actually just go ahead and make a decision.
You need to quiet the ego, to hear your true self.
You may be wondering – How do I tell the difference between the ego self and your true self?
The ego self is loud. It yells at you. It lives in victim mode. It’ll use fear tactics on you to manipulate and deceive. The ego self loves to find everything wrong in a situation and not take any accountability. It has nothing – it will always leave you scared and wanting more.
The true self is quiet. It whispers to you. It lives in abundance. It’ll use love and wisdom to guide and empower you. The true self loves to find the lesson in a situation and grow from it. It has everything – it will always leave you at peace and fulfilled.
Now that you know the difference between the 2 selves – get quiet. Go on a walk, journal, cuddle your pet, draw with no plan. Start to not just listen to your thoughts, but observe them. Act as if the voices and thoughts in your head are detached from you. This will allow you to see how there are different selves within you. Mainly, your ego self and your true self.
I first noticed them so clearly fighting with each other when I was on a walk late at night. I was trying to plan out my day down to the minute – typical ego self taking over trying to control every last detail. Then I stopped and realized how mean my ego was to me.
My ego made me feel as though I am not enough.
That I am not worthy.
That I am not capable.
That life is impossible and too complicated.
When I realized this I thought back to my first initial thought. It was so quiet and small. It whispered to me. The whispers in my head guide and align me to my truest path. I know, and have always known, within myself what is right for me. Yet – my ego hears that and stops it right in its tracks.
The inner voice feels grounded, while the ego feels frantic.
The inner voice speaks in quiet nudges, while the ego shouts.
The inner voice leads to expansion, while the ego keeps you small.
Have you ever felt your inner voice guiding you, but ignored it? What would happen if you started listening? I have been practicing in the moment slowing down and not allowing my ego to take over my thoughts. I’ve felt so much better mentally. My mind feels more clear and open. I go with the flow. I let my inner voice guide me through the day and the present moment.
I recognize that my ego is just trying to protect me from feeling negative emotions, but remember, all emotions are meant to be felt.
Acknowledging the ego’s purpose and taking responsibility for your behavior is
key before you can ever allow yourself to let the ego not control you.
If you tried ignoring your ego for the day, what do you think would happen? I dare you to try it out. 🙂
